I’ve got Generalized Anxiety Disorder. I worry about everything. I worry about possible bad outcomes almost reflexively. I’m trying to be better about it, but it’s a process, and it’s hard.

I worry that the friends I had who live nearby have forgotten me. I worry that I won’t find friends like that again.

I worry about my job. I worry about my finances.

I worry that I’m just slowly becoming invisible.

It’s silly. They’re ridiculous thoughts. But they won’t leave my head. And the more they loop around, the louder they get.

I worry no one wants to hang out with me because I’m depressing or something like that. That’s a big one lately.

I should stop worrying. And if I could just turn it off just like that, I would. But I’ve tried and I can’t. Even with meds, it’s always there. Just at the back of my mind, ready to pounce the second I feel a moment of insecurity or weakness.

I know I should just accept it, and I’ve been trying to do that. I don’t want to be shy or skittish or afraid to try things. So I push myself to be more adventurous, outgoing, social. At least where I can.

my parents’ cat. he adopted them. he used to live with their nextdoor neighbors, but moved when he realized my mom would treat him better than his original owners.

his name is Vader.

more exploring a deeply weird story in Metaphor or…

more running back and forth in Enshrouded

🤔

I feel like I have an obligation to watch and eviscerate Megalopolis just on principle of it ostentatiously declaring itself “A Fable” in the title card

that, and i should really do something with this film degree

well my evening’s going swimmingly

I can confirm the Kroger “Donut Shop” coffee k-cups taste like sad dust.

Dune: Prophecy is so lore-dense it’d sink right to the bottom of a pre-spice mass, I swear

and we’re pulling out all the stops when it comes to “Herbert deep cuts”

yank out your copies of Menats of Dune, kids, we’re going for a 10,000-year time jump backwards

I realize that a lot of early sci-fi alien designs were nothing more than “person in funky helmet/hat” but still

some of them wind up being oddly attractive

(don’t mind me I’m weird)

i keep meaning to finish playing Death Stranding but like

a. I’m terrible at keeping Norman Reedus from falling over b. The snow part is The Actual Suck

friends and pals, it’s Outage Day again!!!

brought to you today by everyone’s favorite German ERP program: SAP!

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Looks like Bluesky is having some struggles today

oops it’s giving me bangers today

#PaxFM

currently tackling my “suddenly I have too many exorbitantly large video files on my server” problem

why is Tdarr being mean to me

News collected for Tuesday, November 12th:

• FURRJOI has officially joined Bluesky after a previous debacle where a bad actor impersonated the company on the service.¹
• LG Display has announced an even stretchier bendable display than previously offered.
• Apple Intelligence on iOS 18 has a habit of creating accidentally humorous summaries of notifications received.
• Mattel accidentally linked a porn site on their Wicked doll boxes.
• Metro Mutt (aka Clarke Macbeth) ran as the first openly furry political candidate (since the Reform Party candidates in Arizona in the 1990s) in this year’s Maple Grove, MN, city council election, receiving 3.02% of the vote in the final contest. (In this district, that equates to 1,794 votes) Users on Bluesky are now joking that Maple Grove is the “30th largest furry convention” as a result of these findings.²

Brunswick stew kind of night.

well that was an entertaining process. gives me something to mess with later. 🐶

gnight, cuties.

nothing quite matches the moment of sheer terror at a coworker joining the “virtual office” group video call with their mic unmuted.

🎮 WEBFISHING developer West has released v1.09, bringing quality-of-life and security updates to the game. (There’s also some neat new features)

so i got a new iPhone for my birthday and decided to set it up with the new “device-to-device transfer” feature introduced in iOS 18. and something weird happened.

so a feature of iMessage is the ability to create and send stickers from photos in your library. and the iPhone will even cut out the subject from a picture and make the sticker look nice with effects and whatnot. neat, cute, whatever. well now, since i did the particular setup method i did, i can’t make any new stickers or see any of the ones i’ve already made. and any time i try to add a new one it just disappears into the digital ether, never to be seen again.

Apple’s official “fix”? Factory reset the phone and redownload everything from an iCloud backup. No thank you. not for something as stupid as stickers. where are these things even stored?? there is literally ZERO documentation on this on Apple’s support site.

why on god’s green earth is it so hard to just put the Citrix users in a GPO that auto-kicks them after, say, 30 minutes of inactivity

why does this damn session host hang on to these damn things entirely too long and make me have to get phone calls